long ;;

long time no entry.
line of the century.
find it elementary,
that im loosing sense of me
time to move on from here,
let go of fear
find out whats new
and be happy too

;; from late last night

more midnight ramblings full of invisible rhymes/thinkin of words to drop next in line/can't even begin to think about sleep/seems like Nas was right its for the weak/tossing and turning wishing things weren't said/sometimes I hate going to sleep in this bed/wish I could change so many th...ings/emotionless marionette with no strings/dancing and playing having a ball/until the moment I wipe out and fall/kept up all night in a pile of my thought/hoping my night tears and fears won't get caught/tangled and webbed my fears hide away/jealousy and rage feel like they're here to stay/I'm caught in my rambling as the words fall/I wonder if anyones listening at all/empty and useless I fill up each page/using the notebook as my center stage/my words are my sanity wrapped up real tight/i wish I could fix up each fight/world has it's problems I know that's true/but I don't want to be a problem to you

food from last few weeks ;;

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love is supposed to conquer it all/does it catch you when you fall/can it help you up and heal your pain/does it stand up when you use it in vain/can you hold it in your hands/does it grow even with a change in plans/can heart mend all its hurt/anger to bliss can it convert/questions for love and the heart/sometimes my feelings tear me apart/is it possible to be wrong in how i feel/is it possible for feelings not to be real/expect nothing from anyone and not from me/blatantly lying cannot set you free/no matter what i do right/all that is left out of sight/invalid and stupid are how im made out to be/melodies of your words lay before me/hum the tune of your story/so much love but one minor truth/are we supposed to hurt in our youth/lessons in learning about self/telling you how I feel never helps/opening up to you means I'm dramatic/our communication is unfortunately tragic/used to light up when you saw my face/now you've replaced names to hide a trace/it's late now I pretend to sleep/lying here thinking not making a peep/putting the words together in string/hoping it makes sense clarity to bring/ponder motives and hunt for hope/emotionally it looks like a slope/expect nothing and let go of it all/I wonder why it has to hurt when I fall/lie to me to set you free/that's what we're taught by society/try to let go and smile/but it's been going on for a while/wish I could turn back time/maybe you'd rethink your rhyme/strong but not bulletproof/now that I found out what does it prove/basically nothing in the end i still loose

;; tremblant

caaaaaaaaaaaatch up ;;

cherry tomato, frankfurter [ all natural beef ], multigrain bun, one egg over easy



branana almond bread


braaaaaaaaannnana almond bread i made


stir fry ! mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm [ skipped lunch this day and the next because i was too busy ! OOOOPS ]


brown bread, light cream cheese, tomato, and lettuce


veggie pasta and cheddar sauce ! with spinach, cauliflower, and broccoli


spinach and cheddar omelet with a 12 grain bagel


car ride snack ! roasted almonds in vanilla yogurt !!!


mixed snackinggg for dinner ! mmmmmmmm


UUUHHH OOOOHHH I HAD JUNK FOOD !!!!!! *ALERT* crispy miiiiinisss


arrozcaldo !! [ philipino ginger soup, with rice, kind of like a congee texture ]


spaetzle with basil pesto and mixed veg


smoked gouda, old cheddar, 12-grain bagel, mixed baby greens with sauerkraut on top !

no junk food for sixty days --- day ten/sixty ;;

two over easy- all natural farmer's market beef frankfurter, AND a multigrain bun, strawberry carrot juice [ all natural also ] anddddd tomatoes !!!!!!



multi grain bun with chickpea hummus, sprinkled with paprika and olive oil, and tiny tomatoes !!!


almond breaded orange roughy, with steamed rapini and saffron rice with peas ! ! ! ! MMMMMMM SO BOMB

nine / sixty ;;

baguette, two over easy and a half a tomato !


vegetable pasta oro


tomato vegetable and white bean soup ! MMMMM fresh warmy goodness

eight/sixty ;;

no eggs todaaaaaaaaay - leftovers instead !

left overs, roasted chicken, stuffing and rice with a salad


haferflocken soupe [ oatmeal soup - savory ] with salad


mixed fruits with muslix


cheese, and veg platter mmmmmmmmmmmmmmm with all natural multigrain bread

not enough energy to write yesterday....let's catch up ;;

soooo YESTERDAAAAAAAAAAAAY i started off with ...

my morning omelet with spinach and cheddar ! with a multi grain bagel !


blue mountain break snack ! mixed green salad and yogurt with almonds !


at blue mountain i had a few bites of ground garlic turkey, and a multigrain bagel!


salad, with austrian stuffing, roasted chicken breast and rice with peas ! SO GOOD !!!!

TODAY;;

two over easy, multi grain baguette, aaaaand fresh bell peppers ! mmmmm


dried apricots !! mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm...such a great snack !


tamarind soup, with taro, daikon radish, and rapini ...with jasmine rice....AMAZING SINIGANG !!!!


one of my favorites, egg noodles with mixed veg, chicken breast and peanuts ...mmmmm
this time a bit spicyyyy....was awesome !

five / sixty ;;

spinach, tomato and cheddar omelet served with some roasted potatoes....i couldn't even eat all the potattttoooooesssssss....soooo fuuuuull - a coffee too this morning!

12-grain bagel with white cheddar, and a cucumber and mixed green salad !!!!!!!! YUMMY ( do u see the bagel man face with the salad afro ? )

banana, unsalted roasted almonds, fat free vanilla yogurt is amaaaazingggggggg


light dinner salad, with cucumber, white cheddar and mixed greens !

not eating junk should be easy, we take our easy diets for granted - but i really need to be more aware of the food i eat. examine what is in it, and realize what i am putting into my body. there are only theories on how to be healthy, and we have to follow what we were conditioned to believe when it comes to food- but we can break that conditioning. we can stop what we are doing, harming ourselves and those we love, and we can live happy, healthy balanced lifestyles. time to be more aware of everything we do. not to mention counting reasonable amounts of calories per day, but letting my self indulge in healthy things too! like roasted unsalted almonds from today ! AMAZING ! be more aware of my actions and reactions. be a better me- everyday.


happy eating !

four / sixty ;;

oooooooooooooooooooooooooooo food today !

egg, mushroom, peppers and cheese omelet, over cooked as per my preference ! with a multigrain bun, and tomato !!!!!

bean sprout tempura with jasmine rice, and tomato !!

chicken stir fry on egg noodles, with mixed veg mmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
MY FAVORITE

saturdizzle 3/60 days no junk !!! ;;

multi grain bun, two eggs, cheddar, plum tomato

ginger beef broth, with rapini and potato

chicken curry, with peaches and curried rice

snack time, mini pear and banana !!!!!


= ) what did YOU have today ????

friiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiday ;;

two sunny side up eggs. multigrain bun. all natural smoked sausage and a half a plum tomato sliced up!


mung bean soup, with bittermelon, bok choy and served with jasmine rice! mmmm


linguini con pollo - tomato based sauce, tossed with mixed veg and chicken breast slices!