stuesday ;;

Well I had leftovers today,
made nachos with the leftover "meat".
it was really good.
I also had some whole milk iced cream...it was grrrrrrrreeeeeeeeaaaaaaaat!
And a pear!

What a healthy day!

new week ;;

Yesterday I had peanut butter and blueberry jelly on brown, it was tasty, and healthy. I also had a banana, an apple and a bowl of cereal. Today I made a vegetarian taco, with ; homemade guacamole, tofu with portobellos and spring onion, and spices as vegan taco "meat"...with lettuce, shredded cheese, tomatoes and salsa!
I had mine as a taco salad though. It was great!

Also last night made Creme Brulee cookies, with sugar on top and everything. They are custard flavored, with crunchy sugar crust on top. Just like a real creme brulee!!!

skipped a day, opps ;;

Yesterday I had an avocado and brie sandwich on whole wheat- with fresh cut fries. And a veggie patty. Today I ate 4 slices of thin crust cheese pizza, and one pancake, a banana, and a bowl of cereal. I have had a couple busy days.
Last night I went down to Kensington with friends and it was fun! We drank organic mill street beer all night, it was fun

Tonight I am not enjoying the rain, so I am going to stay in, watch a flick, maybe read. I don't really know. Sometimes I think no one reads this blog anyway, so who cares! But at the same time, who knows!

Mama, and Nanay [ Nanay means mother in tagalog, even though she's my grandmother, she's the family's mother-- hence the nay ] <3 CAME HOME YESTERDAY !!! Was so happy to see them - went to the airport to make sure I could say hello!

Anyways- happy rainy saturday kids ....

THEY come home tomorrow ;;

YAY <3
MOMMAAAA
&& NANAY TOO <3

thursday ;;

Was busy today, didn't have much of an appetite...but I had spaghetti tossed with tomatoes, olive oil, basil and parm. It was really good. I also had a bowl of cereal today, to get some more whole grains. I had a little peanut butter with crackers- to get some protein, and a banana! I had some good eats today.

I am compiling a list of vegan meals I want to try out soon, and so that is probably going to be next week- also looking into only grocery shopping at Whole Foods now, which should be nice, everything organic and free range. Love that. And exclusively shopping there will give me little movement in buying junk.

Currently I am learning to be unidentifiable through labels and prejudice. I am trying to also see others and scenario that way also. Letting go. Being free.

middle of the week ;;

Today I had an english muffin, with an egg and a piece of cheese for breakfast. It was a whole wheat muffin- so that is good. A cracked wheat peanut butter sandwich, with a handful of popcorn for lunch....I had a bowl of the pancit noodles from yesterday for dinner. I am having some mango now- have to finish a few things, then do some laundry. I have to update my sparkoflife also....I am actually eating three square-ish meals a day and two really healthy snacks. I am getting the right amount of everything- and lots of water! At alice in wonderland I had popcorn [ last night ]. It was a GRREAAAT movie.

It's been busy lately- but I will write more again soon. More in depth of what I am learning lately. My conflict resolution is getting way better! This makes me happy.

More soon.
<3

eats for today ;;

I had homemade pizza for lunch, with mushrooms and green peppers. It was made on a foccacia bread, with no cheese. I really enjoyed it! For dinner I had homemade pancit canton, which is a cantonese noodle with ginger, garlic, onion, spring onion, tofu, carrots, broccoli, bok choy, and lemon on top. So fresh, and tasty. Added a bit of veggie broth to make the flavors deeper- added sesame oil also in the beginning to stir fry the vegetables. I love cooking, and I love how those around me are learning to eat more veg and less meat.

I watched Food Inc. recently, it was a really good movie. I like how raw it is- and how it shows how our eating habits are really destroying us slowly. We need to demand better food, better quality, better ways of raising our animals, treating them with respect. At one point during the movie they showed how the biggest slaughter house in america kills their pigs, they SQUISH them to death- it was hard to watch, I cried! I even had a nightmare about it- I think which was reinforcing that I quit eating meat again. Be more aware. Be more conscious of where my food comes from.

case of the mondays ;;

Today I ate a garden salad, with rice and 3 falafel ! It was really good, with a bit of hummus, and some water. I really enjoyed it. I want to grab some fruit for later.
I am tired and really just want to spend the rest of the night relaxing.

aaaaaaaaaamazing day ;;

That was AWESOME.
I got chosen RANDOMLY to cook on stage with Lynn Crawford,
I made apple chutney! = ) made me so happy. She complimented my dice, and also told me to come by her restaurant that opens in two weeks to talk to her and chef Julie about a position. I am going back to the rest. show tomorrow to talk to her again.
I BROKE MY NO JUNK FOOD STREAK TODAY !!
Ate so much- like 5 different gelatos, and frozen yogurts, and animal bi-product free jello, it was AWESOME. made by kozi something. I really liked the variety of food- I kept skipping tasting because I didn't want to eat too much - or get full. With all the walking, and fun I think I burned enough calories to even out all that gelato!! haha !! When I go back tomorrow I am going to eat a lot more, because I know what I want to eat now haha! I really love the Food and Drink part of it. It's awesome. I missed Kevin Brauch today, so I'll watch him do his mixology thing tomorrow. I got a lot of samples and such to take home, which is really nice of the vendors to do. I am really excited to go back tomorrow. I could spend all three days there! LOVED IT. had such a GREAT DAY.



written while listening to ;; snoop dogg - it's you i adore

re-blog for a friend ;;

"Black then white are all I see in my infancy. red and yellow then came to be, reaching out to me."

Sunday, February 21, 2010 at 1:46am

Confronting my capability pushes me to truth. I was conditioned to believe certain ideals, these illusions are what we have all been conditioned to learn, and thrive on. Being this blind to other perspective is blatantly contradictory to living, growing and extending ability to know the value of nothing contrary to everything. Each disagreement is an opportunity to experience, step outside of yourself- to unveil value in possibly vital knowledge. Riding the spiral to the end, and finding a verdict to actuality. Lifting myself above my own expectation of society's altruism to rule myself harmonized with the universe. Fusing myself to knowledge of self, eternally striving for more can determine my loyal devotion to any higher authority, and truthfully as I journey forward, unmasking each lesson, I forward my own healing process. I see how love and compassion have been strength to me- easily one of the reasons I have more recently learned to turn to life. Allowing myself to drift into the wave of society- as though I am learning to swim in the raging ocean. As I make progress swimming, I see increased attentiveness. Seemly more alert of myself, my actions and the reactions they may cause. The experiences flush away leaving me refreshed and prepared for more. Certainly I observe patiently, waiting for the right moment to interject, instead of riding the wave. Each lesson brings me closer to being able to identify the correct application of my awareness. Weighing each element of application consciously provides me with a stronger ability to conquer each challenge I am confronted with, at each violent turn. These experiences, afterwords drop and become vacant, leaving behind only wiser possibility for greater personal achievement. All these changes are evidently fresh, although excessively welcome, and reading through others perspectives helps me to rationalize my own actualities. Sharing is increasing the chances for the accuracy. Simply challenging myself to learn is absurdly more effective in my personal progress, than vaguely living and breathing with my prejudices provided by my academic educators, and elders, roaming earth with no intention of growth. Ignorantly encasing myself in a bubble, only to have chances for change to bounce off my cocoon, which evidently would lead to an empty short lived life. That is an illusion I cannot extend into other than to experience as others do, to have perspective, but not allowing it to swallow me whole. Granted, I am only learning, and striving for deconstruction of fallacy, I openly like to share my own words, given the appropriate time. Each word helps to guide me to where I am going next - and organizes my ideas thoughtfully.

Thank you for reading.

saturday ;;

Spent today at the neighbours, with friends. I made orange chicken for everyone in the crockpot with rice and pigeon peas. It was a really good dinner. I also had a piece of leftover tart for lunch, and a banana at some point during the day.

Tomorrow is the restaurant show I AM REALLY HYPED.
Going to take some cold medicine and sleep until tomorrow.

Night Everyone, Hope you enjoyed the weather today !
xx

cold and allergy season ;;

I woke up feeling even worse today! I think it's a combination of allergies and a cold. Brutal though, I really want to be better for the restaurant show.
Anyways, today I had two bowls of vanilla rice crispies, and two little pieces of my potato asparagus cheese tart w/ filo dough crust, filled with spinach and broccoli. It was grand ! I am going to lay down with a cup of chamomile and try to get better! Night folks.

current thought ;;

life showed me the way, even though i fell astray, i am proud of me today.
i see myself more clearly, blinded merely, but now seeing life sincerely.
rode the wave of life to now, fate allowed, understanding problems, i vow.
hurling myself into knowledge, but not academic, this time not college.
knowledge of me, my plea to society to be free, lasting life without debris.
life reveals the power in love, sincerity something to secretly be proud of.
leave prejudice, and illusion for compassion should be the action in fashion.
see to gain accuracy in observation, experience each of life's sensations.
unmask yourself in the mirror, be nearer to personal awareness to see clearer.
foundation for information, should be the creation of fascination for transformation.
following the road i already built, healed my guilt, time to let go, and let my vision tilt.
each new day is a way to get straight, to elate what is great, and make my own fate.
i used to burn and i yearned to be strong and stern at each wild destructive turn.
now, i am grateful to see, and to hear and to learn. i also give love, and wisdom i earn.

also, old current thought i liked ;; Tuesday, February 23, 2010 at 8:15pm

my heart
now sewn up and mending.
my mind - worn out, but bending.
finding new meaning to my life
influenced.
explored. experienced. elaborately underestimated.
forcing truth.
forcing myself to see.
letting life take me to see- so i can be free.
i don't worry about it anymore, about my personal growth.
i know i'm on my way - and i no longer loath.
i see happiness within me, that radiates around me.
willing to see- willing to be - willing to be set free.
my turn.
to learn and grow consistently.
my need - expands evidently.
i can't just let anything define my life.
i have to find many ways to explain it to myself.
writing it out; helps me to organize.
i have yet to some , apologize.
once loose ends are tied down - i'll be able to heal forever
making myself better - with each word and letter.
my love,
unconditional and immense.
my life- amazing at best ....

written while listening to ;; barcelona - stamina & dkay

food for thought ;;

Well, today for breakfast I had a whole grain bagel, with a tsp of nutella! mmmm WAS SO GOOD. Then for lunch I had three small slices of broccoli, and pineapple pizza, on thin whole grain, easy on the cheese. It was also really good, about fifteen minutes ago I had a bowl of cheerios ! They were whole grained goodness. I will probably end up having some fruit or something later. I also had a coke zero today, first something that WASN'T water in weeks. Was good- but water is better. I am really glad I have stuck to my NO JUNK FOOD so far - and each day it gets easier. I am getting less used to eating crap everyday!

Today is Thursday, therefore the week is coming to a close, and this is good !
Sunday I am going to the CRFA Foodservice Trends & Directions Conference.
there is going to be ; ;
* celebrity chefs
* Cooking with the Stars
Sunday & Monday Presented by Garland Canada, Manitowoc
"A live culinary event that will see Ontario’s top chefs paired with audience members. Together, the professionals and their newly recruited sous chefs will prepare two plates for judging, based on mystery “black box” ingredients. "

I am very excited for this. Been waiting WEEKS.
woooooo

written while listening to ;; weezer - undone

variety ;;

Today I had oatmeal for breakfast. I had half a chicken breast, grilled, with curried okra, and rice and pigeon peas...I had a bowl of whole grain cereal in the afternoon, with an apple. Later on I had a nutri-grain bar, and a falafel wrap. I had a very healthy day, full of lots of nutrients and flavor.

I was thinking about the rainbow today - how knowing variety can help in any aspect of life. Each color of the rainbow can represent a different perspective, and each one can bring a whole new truth to a situation. I'll write more about this soon.

written while listening to ;; dragon's den on CBC

angel food cake ;;

I just had tuna, on top of lettuce, and cabbage. It was bomb.
THEN I had three bites of angel food cake, with nectarine yogurt and blueberries. mmmm
it only has 120 calories per 85g serving. Three bites is like nothing. The yogurt has 35 per container. So all in all my snack including the tuna salad, and the cake was 200.
Total today I have had just under 1500 calories!
written while listening to ;; the toronto maple laughs loosing to carolina

i'm useless but not for long, the future is coming on ;;

I have been drinking water for years- and I love it. I usually drink tap water- but no frills is having a sale, 15 bottles for 1$. I usually wash them and refill them a bunch of times, so I try to be less wasteful. Also always recycle them.

I had my sole fillet lunch, with rice and steamed broccoli&carrots. I had a bowl of apple reduced sugar oatmeal, with a handful of granola on top, for texture. It was good. I forgot to get more blueberries >.< ! I have to get some tomorrow, organic blueberries are on sale at no frills also. Tomorrow I am going to make tofu and chicken curry, with okra and spinach, served with rice and pigeon peas. I am really trying to mix up flavors and variety of fruit and veg in each meal. Tonight I will probably munch on cantaloupe, or an apple, and I had a yogurt earlier today, and more almonds maybe. I really like the idea of all these whole foods I am eating. Everything seems heartier and better for me. Progress in each aspect of my life is good. I am very happy.
What have you been eating ?

written while listening to ;; gorillaz - clint eastwood

it's stuesday ;;

Manny Pacquiao is one of the most famous filipino's EVER. He is fighting Joshua Clottey March 13. SOON. This is something to look forward to, there's a lot of talking going on about this fight.

Today for lunch I had sole, baked in lemon pepper, with leftover jasmine rice, and steamed broccoli and carrots. It was really good. I liked mixing up the weeks eats with some fish.
I also had a handful of blueberries.

I had a dream last night that I was sitting in a giant vat of grapes, and I was in a vineyard. It was quiet, and peaceful. The only part that I remember standing out, is me squishing the grapes in my hand, and then tons of wine coming out of it. It to me felt like I was telling myself that tiny bits of change within me, lead to bigger change in the long run. I really enjoyed this dream, it was calming.

Off to finish up the day.

written while listening to ;; tool - lateralus

wrap up ;;

The dryer is almost done. I had my chicken dinner, my frozen grapes, a handful of blueberries with strawberry yogurt & a 1/2 cup of granola, white cheddar, on whole grain toast, with cucumber & one serving of peanuts- and that's it for the day.

Overall it was a very healthy day. AND NONE OF IT WAS JUNK FOOD.
= )
written while listening to ;; the television running

blog sharing ;;

BIG UP ALJACK for adding my blog to the spark of life media page.
SHARING IS CARING.
http://sparkoflifemedia.com
http://sparkoflifemedia.com/supranaturalactivity/
check out ALJACK's blog too !!
chooooooooooooooons everywhere !!

also;;
these are green seedless grapes.
try them frozen. i am eating them right now.
SO BOOMDIGGITY
buy them fresh, and then freeze em for an hour.
mmmmmmmmmmmmm

written while listening to ;; skee lo - i wish

weird eating habits ;;

Well, today I didn't have an appetite all day, but went to the grocery store - got a bunch of tasty fruit and veg, some chicken breast- and fish [sole]. Lemons for the fish tomorrow, and made some jasmine rice. Today I got to eat mushroom creamy sauce on my grilled chicken breast, served it with garlic tossed steamed spinach...forgot parsley for garnish...grr !! I will have to remember for tomorrow. I have to learn to eat three proper meals in a day instead of one big one and 3 little snacks. It's probably not the greatest way - but I find if I eat three then I end up taking in more calories. So for now -- my weird eating habits stay.

I also got blueberries, grapes, cantaloupe, and mango tofu. Mmm, that will be good later. As of right now I am really full, I think my stomach is finally shrinking again, and I will be able to eat less and feel satisfied. Since I didn't eat lunch, I thought why not indulge in something higher in calories...and it was worth it !!
AND IT WASN'T JUNK FOOD = ) !

I have been eating very healthy, and maintaining my water intake. Hopefully this all works for bathing suit weather. It's still a few months so I have plenty of time to eat healthy, fresh foods.
As for being vegan, learning how to cook well, really makes it hard to cook strictly vegan food.
I want to have more free range and organic meats, poultry and seafood available at MY LOCAL SUPERMARKET. I think I may write them a letter....

written while listening to ;; serani - study people
[[ ps. does anyone know who made the remix of study people, [dnb] that was played @ Elmocambo this weekend ?????????? ]]

equal reactions ;;

In life we have all made mistakes in how we treat people. We have all mistreated the people we love, and hurt those around us- now it's about how we continue life and treating people. Learning to make sure you treat others the way you expect to be treated is important to keeping healthy, vital relationships with the people you care about. I try to be aware of my actions and their reactions in order to keep destructive conflict at a minimum. When I get a reaction I didn't expect I usually try to analyze what I did wrong in the situation - and try to correct it. Gaining this accuracy in my action is rewarding when the reactions are reasonable. I will continue to correct my actions and reactions, finding a balance within them.

As for eats for the day, I think I am going to make grilled chicken on a salad. Or something along those lines, maybe a nicoise salad...steamed potatoes, steamed green beans, hard boiled egg, tomatoes, tuna and nicoise olives ! with a Dijon dressing. CLASSIC.

Grocery store mission later. Have a great day everyone !!

written while listening to ;; biggie - warning